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One Week Journal.

250509.
Had a Service Quality Mind training session @ HR around 9am.
Went there with Atiqah and our ward mates.
Really enjoyed my day there with a few colleagues who were also from NYP.
Had lunch @ Pizza Hut nearby.
Really very the 'kecoh' sia. Haha.
But it made my day. Whatsmore with the activities held in the second part of the programme. Thanks to the speaker, Louis, and the bestest group I was in.
Really chaotic and enjoyable group.
I just wished that everyday would be like that day. Haha.
And after the session, I had a very hard time in fact stressful time of finding the attire for my graduation day which was on the next day.
However, I was lucky that I managed to find the attire for that special day. Alhamdulillah.

260509.
Graduation Day 2009!
My very own GRADUATION DAY!!
Finally after THREE YEARS of studies in NYP taking Diploma in Nursing.
Alhamdulillah syukur. I managed to withstand all those THREE challenging years in the course.
I was so super duper happy especially when both my parents were there to share my happiest day ever in receiving my Diploma Cert after a hardwork of studies.
Thank you so much my dearest Mom and Dad!
Love you both so much!!
Really had a wonderful great super duper day in school with all my friends.
Miss all of them so much. Especially NR0621.
Wonderful classmates. Will always remember them in my mind and heart.
Had a wonderful photoshots taken with my friends and my parents.
Will keep them in my memories.
And to make the day much better and memorable one, me, Ijan and Raudhah spent our time together watching the movie - Night at the Museum 2 and also had dinner together. At the same time, just 'lepak'-ing around at town area and sharing some stories together as it had been quite some time since we met each other.
Really misses all those wonderful times I had with them in school.
The Graduation Day as in whole day was a great day for me!
I LOVE IT!! Hehe.

270509.
MOM & DAD 21ST ANNIVERSARY!
Hehe. Fortunately my OFF DAY!
So I told my parents to go on a 'date'.
A romantic couple la I would call it.
Hehe. While me take care of my sis at home.
My dad brought my mom to a movie then for a lunch.
Whereas me and my siblings planned on ordering pizza and also make a card.
Fortunately gotten my pay already. So can order pizza.
We ordered the new Viva deal pizza from Pizza Hut.
Rarely can get us to buy something for our parents.
Alhamdulillah. Since Ive gotten a career now that I can treat my loved ones to food or basic needs.
Im glad and grateful to have a stable career now.
Can really help alot in my family.
Amin. =)

280509.
Beloved Aunt and Uncle's 21ST Anniversary.
Also BACK to WARD! (after 3 DAYS away from ward)EVENING SHIFT.
Fortunately I incharge of first half while my colleague 2nd half.
Quite alright la that evening.
Manageable. And coping well. Alhamdulillah.
But for once I could go for break on a weekday.
Hehe.

290509.
Another EVENING SHIFT with another senior staff!
Instead of my preceptor.
But fortunately I could cope with the workload for that evening.
Alhamdulillah. Syukur.

300509.
MORNING SHIFT!
This morning was quite busy in the early morning.
Loads of IVs that I had to give.
Whatsmore with all the Drs' rounds, all the caseo notes and IMRs all over the place.
How to give my medications on time?
Aiyo. Can go crazy sia. And worst, one of the HOs borrowed my pen.
Difficult sia without a pen. Haha.
And I ended up lost my friend's pen instead.
Haha. What to do. I had to buy a new pen for her. Hehe.
But we did manage to clear all our tasks in time before passing report.
And could go for break! Hehe.
And I ended my day today with a good outing with my dearest cousins.
Wonderful time we had. Thanks to them for willing to accompany me to Peninsula to buy a new pair of jeans. Like finally I bought a new pair la course my previous jeans were quite tight for me and whatsmore skinny jeans. Haha.
So now I bought a straight cut jeans for myself.
Hehe. Quite happy today with their company. Love them so much! Hehe.

Alright then. That's all for now and for the whole week of my life's experience.
Bestest week I had so far. Hehe.
Alhamdulillah. Syukur. Amin. Tc ppl. Love ya loads. =D

Strength to carry on.

Another Good Weekends.

Working on a Saturday morning.
With my preceptor Ana and my new colleague Kailing.
Being incharge of first half whereas Kailing second half.
Quite happy to have my preceptor working with me.
She was junior for yesterday.
I did help out with junior work as there was only three of us working in the morning at 'A' Station. As I had settle most of my changes, I helped Kailing with some of the changes as she's also new in the ward.
Ana also told me to help Kailing as I had been in the ward for quite some time and to share knowledge with one another. That's a good thing. Also to make me a more better nurse. Hehe. And I also learn to manage my time better and prioritise my stuffs. And most importantly, completed my work on time. Hehe.

After work more fun! Had a short shopping time with my family and relatives at Giant Tampines. Shopped for my graduation day. But only managed to buy a shirt. No pants and shoes yet. Haiz. Stress sia thinking about this graduation thingy. Hmm.
Anyways, enjoyed my day with my niece's birthday held at her house in Woodlands.
Three families celebrating a 10-yr-old gril's birthday.
Really had fun there. Karaoke session was the best! Haha. I could really relieve my stress through singing. So fun! And also lost a bit of my voice. Haha. And I also envied my niece's new hairstyle-her rebonded hair.
I wanna rebond my hair too!! Hehe. I'll have it done soon! Hehe.

Working on a Sunday afternoon was quite relaxing.
Managed to go for my break for once. Hehe.
And working with Ana, Kailing and Jasmine (NUS student).
At first, I was assigned to do junior work whereas Kailing, incharge of all.
But Ana wanted Kailing to familiarise herself with the routine and junior work.
So I ended up being incharge of first half again and Ana second half.
Had fun though being incharge of first half on a Sunday afternoon. Not that busy and chaotic like weekdays. All of us could still laugh and joke around.
Not that stressful after all. Hehe.
Had a talk with Ana for awhile.
Im really grateful that my preceptor is Ana.
Really nice and never scolded me. Helped me alot.
Especially in prioritising and organising my work.
Thanks to her advices that I managed to cope with my workload now although at times the situation is quite stressful and hectic.
But so far both weekends that I did were really relaxing.
Not that stressful and able to have breaks.
Alhamdulillah. Hopefully I'll be able to become a better nurse as time goes by.
Insya'Allah. Amin.

Strength to carry on.

My Off Days.

One great off days I had this week.
After a week of tiring and exhausting working period, I finally had a good rest.
But not really resting at home la. Hehe.
I had a badminton match with my friend which didn't last that long even.
We spent more time talking instead of playing. Haha.
But enjoyed the afternoon. Thanks alot Ijan for asking me out for a short match.
Hehe. Really appreciate it. Especially when I've started work in SGH.
Thought I would be having dinner with my DMSS friends after the match but...
Hmm.. You know what I meant with all the dots.. Hehe.
Of course that means we didn't meet for a dinner due to some reasons.
Well, other than that this afternoon was good.
Had a wonderful outing with my brother-Hafiz.
Accompanied him to the mall nearby to buy his things and at the same time finding new clothings for my graduation day but..
Didn't find any. Most of it are quite expensive ah. Whatsmore, haven't gotten my pay yet. More worse sia. Hmm.. What to do but still I have to find an attire for my special day. Haiz.
Anyways, I really should thank my brother so much for willing to accompany me to window shopping this afternoon. Although he was tired, he still willing to follow me to all the shops that I went. Hehe. Thanks alot bro. Love you. Hehe.
Hmm. Tomorrow Im working back in the ward. 4 Days of working before my next off day.
Had to 'tahan' la girl. Hehe. Insya'Allah can. Amin.

Strength to carry on.

Once a Wonderful Weekend @ Work.

Never ever had a good day at work before.
Finally I got to experience such wonderful days at work during this weekend.
Working with my nice preceptor Ana and crazy Miera. Hehe. Sorry girl.
Anyways, we could laugh and talk during our shifts on the weekends.
Working together hand-in-hand.
And of course complete everything on time.
And finally signing out on time.
Hehe. Like finally and once in this working experience Im able to be happy and laughing during my work shift.
And being able to work within my working pace which is not too fast like the other days.
Quite exhausting to work at a fast pace.
As in super duper fast la.
Hmm.. Just wish that the other days will be like the weekends but that is so impossible. Will never happen I can say. Haiz..
Anyways, my preceptor went through my competency checklist with me today and also giving me some feedback of my performance this far.
Need some improvement la.
Loads of things I need to learn.
Hopefully I can make it la.
Insya'Allah. Amin.

By the way. Haha. Thanks ARon for allowing me to try venepuncture on you. Hehe.
Kinda cool and fun!
Didn't expect that I can do successfully during the first try.
And for your info girl, it was really painful a few hours after you did venepuncture on me.
Haha. Can't really bend my arm sia. Haha.
But now abit okla. Thanks once again for enjoying the venepuncture with me yesterday.
Really fun! And coolness! Hehe. See ya tmr girl!

Strength to carry on.

You My Love**AqifZamani**

**AqifZamani**

My Love.
My Life.
My Happiness.
My Everything.

Haha.
Too addicted to the character in "Dari Mata Arisa".
Good storyline.
Good characters.
Sweet.
Nice.
Romantic.
Not to forget - The Antagonists.
Evil.
Annoying.

Well in any case, I love watching the series.
Feel like finding the book and read it too.
And also watching the series again.
Not a bored series at all.
Likeable.
My favourite now.
And most of all..

I like this character - Aqif Zamani.
Acted by Syed Aiman.
His character really made me wish that there will be someone like him in reality.
The characteristics in Aqif Zamani are what I want in my Dream Guy.

*Loving.
*Caring.
*Understanding.
*Responsible.
*Seorang yang Soleh.
*A family guy.
*Setia.
*Will always be there for the person he loves.
And lastly..
*Handsome too. Hehe. (that's just a bonus la.)

Hmm.. I wonder if there's such person like Aqif Zamani in this real life.
I really hope that I will be able to meet someone like him in future.
Be the important person in my life.
Insya'Allah. I will meet someone with most of the characteristics that I'd mentioned.
Only time will tell.

Strength to carry on.

Busy Morning.

I thought today would be a relaxing morning but NOT!
Its worse than yesterday lor.
Very busy. Especially when just started the shift.
Haiz..
Lots of new orders and changes to be done.
Stressfull you know.
But lucky I had Aron's Leonith to help me settle my changes one by one.
Thanks to both the preceptor and preceptee in helping me just now.

Thanks alot Aron for helping me and waiting for me to complete my work.
Even on your off day, you had to come to the ward.
Thanks alot ya for the help.
Really appreciate it.
Really appreciate both these staffs for their help since Im a lost abandoned chick again. Haiz..
What to do..
Just my luck..
Just need to stay strong to be in this line. Hmm..
Anyways, I hope to work with my preceptor back again next week.

By the way.. Haha..
I gotta tell you that the new batch of HOs are quite nice.
And I met this one HO who is very nice and polite.
He asked me for help to disconnect a drip. He kept saying thank you and said 'Terima Kasih'. I thought he learnt abit of Malay that's why he said that.
But then, he came to me again for help. Guess what. He talked to me in Malay Indonesian accent. Shocked me sia.
I was like smiling2 behind the surgical mask that I wore. Haha.
Can even recall his name Stanley. Haha. Nice Doc. Should be from Indonesia I think. Haha. Niwaez, I just hope this new batch of HOs won't trouble us nurses so much.
Hope they will remain this nice forever. Hehe.

Strength to carry on.

Stress!!

After a long days off from work, Im back in the ward this afternoon.
Without my preceptor, Im assigned to be in charge of all 16 patients again.
Thought that I'll be able to do it but..
Haiz..
My work just can never end.
Being left to do loads of things myself.
Handling things myself..
Really stressed me up.
Didnt able to complete my work on time.
Being left in the ward to complete my stuffs till 10plus.
Haiz..
I cried on my way home.
Fortunately my dad fetched me and the van was dark.
So nobody knew that I cried.
Cried in the dark.
Really felt like quitting this job. Or maybe at most, wanting to transfer to Ortho ward. Haiz..
Im still thinking if I should tell my ward sister about it.
One of my ward sister did ask if I was ok.
And of course I kept smiling and said ok course didnt want them to have a negative thinking about me.
Haiz..
Working life for me now is really tough.
Everyone would say its a norm for a start.
But...
It's just too difficult for me.
I know it will take time but..
why cant they just give me more time to get use to the system and familiarise myself with the ward routine?!!
Why cant they just see that Im still struggling??!!
Im really sad and depressed with myself.
Felt that the staffs really didnt like me due to my slowness in my work.
Please give me some time!
At least let me take charge of half the patients first as a start.
That's all I asked for.
I really am feeling depressed and stress now!
I need more guidance.
It's just a few weeks Im working there.
Im still lost!
I dont know who to talk to now!
God please help me. I really need your guidance and strength to move on.
Im just not sure what will become of me.
I may just breakdown one of these days. Haiz..
Worst still Im starting to go on my bad habit now which is asap.
Haiz.. Been trying to avoid that so much.
Now... Haiz..

Strength to carry on.

050509.

Dated 5th May 2009. (0505)

It's his birthday.
21st Birthday! "Key to freedom" - that's what people use to say about that age.
Haha. But I dont know if it's real.
Haven't yet reached that age ma. Hehe.
Anyways, it's his birthday today.
Didnt give him any present this year.
Didnt even plan to give also due to some reasons.
Just a birthday wish. Which I think is good enough.
It's the thought that counts right?
That's what people use to say too even till now.
But whatever it is, I won't forget his birthday.
A special friend to me.
Will always be in my mind.
In any case, I wish him happiness with his loved ones and a good health.
I'll be happy to see him happy.
And Im happy with my life now.
Being single and able to do all the things that I want.
And have time for my own favourite things like - admiring my Wolverine and watching Wolverine action movies. Hehe.
Anyways, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST FRIEND!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU. AND REMEMBER ME ALWAYS. (AS A FRIEND).
That's all I asked for. Tc. =)

Strength to carry on.

GlamZ.

Hey2..

Finally Ive rebonded my fringe. Quite alright la.
Happy with it now. So Ive taken some pictures of me.
Tangkap glamz!! Haha. And my friend said its 'EMO-look' for me. Haha.
Want that EmoGirl to come back. Haha.
Really miss those EMO times. So EMO!! If add eyeliner to my eyes, more EMO sia.
Shall put that image on soon. Haha. Crazy EMO girl..
And...
Relieve stress also with all these pictures taken while I went out with my family last weekend.
Really enjoyed my weekends. Dont wanna end the long OFFDAYS!! Argh!!
Anyways enjoy my new hairdo. Hehe..

And do give your comments on my new look ya. Would really appreciate it. Hehe. Thanks.

Strength to carry on.