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Enjoy life to the fullest! (:

My Dearest Wolvey.

WOLVERINE!!

I am so in loved with you. =D
Hahaha.
Watching him act in X-Men and seeing his face really melt my heart.
Wolverine or real name - Hugh Jackman.
He's really damn HOT and HANDSOME!
I like his body shape too!
It really takes a few years to work on having that kind of body for guys. His big muscular arms. WOW! Damn HOT sia!
Don't believe see the pictures below which I took online few days back.

Aiyah. But too bad he's married already with two kids.
Haha. Still can have time to do research about him ah. Crazy sia me.
In the midst of my busy week with work, I still have to find time for entertainment ma. So by looking at Hugh Jackman's picture really brighten up my day.
Entertain myself with the things I like. Haha.
Relieve my tension and stress at work.

Me with my Wolverine whereas my partner Aron with her Spidey!
Haha. That's how we entertain ourselves lor.
Like schoolgirls who fancy fiction characters. Comic heroes somemore. Haha.
But who cares la. I like Wolverine and his HOT MUSCULAR BODY!
So super duper melt me. Haha.
Im crazy already. Nevermind. As long not admitted to IMH is alright. Haha.
Well. Enjoy watching the slideshow of my favourite hero!
And don't forget to watch X-Men Origins: Wolverine movie in the cinema now!

Strength to carry on.

Breathless.

SWINE FLU!!!

Another outbreak?!
Hopefully not. Please prevent this outbreak from happening here!!
Cause I can't take it anymore!!
Wearing a N95 or Drager mask for the whole of 8 hours of work in the clinical area?!!
So breathless and HOT! CO2 sure very damn high lor.
Already SOB. Can have asthma sia like that.
Ish. Choy ah. Touch wood.
Another thing it causes itchiness and redness to my face and ears.
And also cause an outbreak to my face with pimples. Haiz.
Managed to escape the SARS outbreak. Then now another new disease outbreak?
Hmm... Really pray hard the outbreak won't be happening in Singapore. Or I may just wanna quit. Haha. Bad sia me.
But I really can't stand the full PPE and PAPR.
Really will make you sweat like pig! Haha. Whatsmore the uniform is not absorbent and quite thick lor. Wear the uniform only is hot. With the PPE and PAPR more worse la. Aiyo. What to do sia. Being a nurse like that lor. Haiz. Regret now no point la girl.
Anyways it's a good and saint job. Should be grateful and thankful that I chose this career path course Im able to help people who are sick and in need. That's what I always tend to do ma. That's just me. A nice helpful girl who tends not to say 'NO' to people in need.
Hmm.. Is that a good thing or bad? Anyone can tell me? Hmm..

Well.. I just need to pray to God to give me the strength and light to the correct path. And continue with my career till I achieve my goals. Im sure I can make it through this tough period. Insya'Allah. Amin.

Strength to carry on.

Adopted Baby.

Abandoned for two weeks.
With only minimal guidance. Lost in a new world.
Almost drowning. Struggling still.
Only yesterday being adopted back.
Being taught and guided from drowning into the deep sea.
Although with my slow working pace and still struggling, I had someone to guide and help me through. Assigned to manage 16 patients for the first time was quite challenging. Second day of the week too the same. But I can tell you morning shift is much more chaotic and busy. Haiz. Stressful! Challenging!
But still keep holding on..
Wah like the Avril Lavigne song sia. Haha.
Anyways I can be considered quite fortunate to have a nice and helpful preceptor.
Also guided me through these two days. Hopefully she won't anti- me or something due to my slow-ness.
Im like having mind block sia. Becoming forgetful at times and really lack of knowledge. Haiz. Sien ah. Still got IV Exams to study. How to memorise all the notes. Can really jam my mind. Also feel like going to burst only my brain. Haha.

Bismillahirahmannirahim. Ya Allah. Berikanlah petunjuk kepada HambaMu yang lemah ini dan terangkanlah hati ku ini. Semoga apa yang ku pelajari dapat ku ingati. Amin.

Strength to carry on.

Unplanned Outing.

Well I didn't really planned to have an outing this afternoon but...

Haha. Thank God for giving me a wonderful day to be with wonderful people. Thanks alot Atiqah for willing to accompany me to the saloon to have my fringe rebonded. And also thanks for the introduction to your wonderful friends and the scary movie. Haha. This I got to tell you people. Haha.

We watched movie "Jangan Tegur" at Century Square around 7.15pm. We went in abit late so missed a small part in the beginning la. But whatever it is still managed to watch the rest of the movie. And guess what. Almost through out the whole movie, the 6 of us would cover our eyes at some point. Laughing and screaming and giving comments like "Don't turn around la", "Why must go there at night?" and so on and so forth. Trying to convey the message to the actors or actresses but it's all directed what. Haha. Funny la they all. Even me also times two la. Haha. The sound effects were the ones making the movie quite scary. Shouldn't have watched it man. Haha. Really scary for me. But quite alright la. Haha.

So yea. Great day with great people. Thanks alot people especially my wonderful friend Atiqah. Will miss you loads girl. Hope to go out with you again soon. Tc.

Strength to carry on.

Beloved Brother's Birthday.

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Finally a Saturday had come. My DAY OFF!! And not to forget, my PAY DAY TOO!!! Haha. Cool man. My beloved brother Hafiz's birthday and he is so damn lucky la. I just got my 1st official pay. So can treat my family members to a big feast at JB. Haha.

So yea. My family, Kak Yah's family and Wak Ani's family went JB on that day. Only went City Square la. Not that far. Went shopping there till we almost dropped. Haha. And worst I had a headache too la. Freaking irritating and bad. Haiz. But anyways, did enjoy my day with my family members there. I was the boss for that day as I was the one treating to the wonderful dinner at a restaurant called 'Sedap Corner'. The food was quite nice and at an affordable price. Good service too. Haha. Thanks loads to the restaurant for the wonderful dinner. Haha. And I also did buy gifts for my bro Hafiz and my partner in crime whose birthday is just around the corner. Haha. Won't forget one la. Anyways, we didn't cut the Birthday cake there as all of us were already full. So we decided to bring back home to Kak Yah's house at Woodlands.

We reached her house around 10pm from JB. Quite tiring sia. But really worth it and enjoyed it loads. Well, as planned, Birthday Boy cut his Birthday cake!! Below are some pictures of the cake and the Birthday Boy himself. Enjoy!!

Haha. And I just realised from these pictures, my brother looks darker course I could see his bright red lips. Haha. He sure looks tanned but still quite handsome to me. Haha.

Strength to carry on.

Yet Another Rough Day.

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Last day of my working week for this week. Haiz. Yet another rough day. Thought it would be a great day but... No one knows what me and my friend went through on that evening shift except Him. Having to be in-charge of 8 patients each and being supervised by a Staff Nurse who is much senior than us but at the same time, she's doing the junior job. Haiz. And didn't really guide us much la. Always telling us to speed up. But what do you expect from us who are still new and just a week old in the ward doing shift work. It was so stressful. I went for a quick break alone and burst into tears in the staff toilet alone. Couldn't control my feelings anymore at that moment. Haiz. I was grateful though to have my friend, Sharon working together with me on that day. At least I had someone when I was in a mess with all the work. Thanks alot Aron! I really hope to work together with you more often and helped each other to complete our jobs. We can prove to the other unhelpful and unfriendly staffs what we are able to do and that we can do it! No matter what. We are all in this together. One for all, all for one! Aron and Adon can never be defeated. Haha. Crap sia me. Haha.

But whatever it is, I'll pray that God will help us go through all these challenges. And show us light to the right path. Insya'Allah. Amin.

Strength to carry on.

Bad Day with Tears.

Crystals started to form in my eyes this afternoon.
First time to be in Central Station. Yet another new environment and new work pace for me. Another period of shock after managing to get through the previous shock of being in a new ward. Haiz. Life is just so difficult. Especially in this working life whereby people can't be trusted 100%. But when you're new, you tend to just trust the seniors. Haiz.
Anyways, today I had a hard time managing course in the morning, my seniors kept calling me to do this and that. Without knowing Im only ONE person with A PAIR OF HANDS. Of course I can't do everything at the same time! But why can't they see it?! Damn it la! I just hate it. I know Im new but why must they make me like this?! Im no longer a STUDENT whereby they can just USE me to do their stuffs. Im still learning to cope with the new responsibilities of a STAFF NURSE! They think Im what?! ANIMAL?! Damn it la!
After a hard morning, I still had to endure another hard time in the afternoon even after passed over report was done to the afternoon shift. So that just made me much free and able to go home on time right? But NO! I was hold back to do a dressing at a last minute! She should have told me earlier to do the dressing for her but didn't! Like purposely sia! I can't take it with all these crap! Not at all that. While doing dressing, I was scolded by the patient course she felt pain when I opened her bandage. She said "If you didn't do properly until I feel pain, I'll kick you out of here!". Damn it la! I was being left alone to handle the situation. I almost cried while doing the dressing but had to control it. Ended everything at 415pm. Without telling any staffs, I just left the ward after signing off.
Glad I met Sharon in the staff toilet. Haiz. Both of us had a hard time and tears flowing down our cheeks today. Haiz. I burst into tears in my room as soon as I reached home. Nobody knows about what happened today except Sharon. We understand each others' feelings as we are in the same boat. Still struggling. Trying not to drown. Haiz.

Ya Allah.. Berikanlah petunjuk dan kekuatan kepada hamba Mu yang lemah ini.
I really hope to succeed in life. Never wanna let my loved ones down. Please God help me. That's all I can ask for.

Strength to carry on.

Argh!!

Tired! Exhausted! Argh!!
Im really so damn freaking tired these days especially these two days of the week. Full morning shift from 7am to 335pm.
Waking up early in the morning was really tiring. Whatsmore. All of a sudden, my senior wanted me and my friend to be incharge of one cubicle which is equivalent to four patients. Felt stress and shocked at first course still new to the ward settings and management. Just starting to crawl, they already want us to fly. Haiz. Stress girl. But Im fortunate though to have nice seniors who guided me during my placement there. Guided me when Im taking charge of patients. But still I helped out with junior work as well until I didnt manage to finish writing my report before passing report. And yesterday more cool. I didnt manage to pass report even course had to prepare my patient for op. So sien ah. And worst still.. for TWO DAYS consecutively I didnt manage to go for a break. So exhausted! U can imagine working non-stop without any breaks from 7am to 335pm doing all the various kinds of job in the ward. Very super duperly damn freaking tired and exhausted! Fortunately I could withstand all that so far. Haiz.. What to do. Just my job. A nurse got to do what a nurse got to do. Haha. What crap Im talking now. Haha. Dont bother. Tired ppl always talk crap like that. Haha. Okla. Got to go already. Tomorrow still need to wake up early for the last lecture day. Haiz. Btw Ive gotten my roster for next 4 weeks already! Quite shitty ah the roster. After day, evening, then day then evening. Non-stop like that. Make me more tired and exhausted only. Haiz. What to do. Manager gave that roster to me. So accept it lor. Just have to be strong and stay healthy. Insya'Allah. Amin.

Strength to carry on.

My Dream Car.

Honda!!
I am so wanting Honda Civic now. Gotta take my license ASAP and save up for my Dream Car. Haha. After watching Fast and Furious 4, I am so wanting to drift. Feel as if Im in the car driving and drifting. Can't wait man. My aim this year is to get a driving license by the end of the year and save my money for a car. Hopefully can get my Dream Car which I just surf the net just now to see my Dream Car and took a picture of it. There's two types which interest me at the moment. They are Honda Civic Mugen Si Sedan and Honda JDM Civic Mugen RR. Really hot cars to me! Haha. Below are some of the pictures of my Dream Cars. Have a look at it. Enjoy! Hehe.

I want those cars! Work hard girl! Earn more and save up! One of my aims now other than further studies. Hehe. I can do it! =)

Strength to carry on.

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It was a very tiring day for me. Had to wake up as early as 445am for work on a Saturday. Really tiring. But I was fortunate that it was a half day only which was till 12noon. The ward was also not that busy. So my job for that day was quite alright although had to handle difficult patients and relatives. Challenging job. But whatever it is, just strive for the best. Well, I had an outing with my friend in the afternoon. Went out for a movie. Wanna know what movie see the tickets below.

See it? "Fast and Furious 4"!! The movie that I had been waiting for. Love the cars! All modified. Engines running. Screeching. So loads of actions going on. I am so wanting to have those cars. Haha. No worries. I'll save up to achieve that. And the rating for the movie I can give is 4.5/5. Haha. Thanks loads ya Shahid for the treat. Awesome movie. And now my family and cousins want to watch it too. So I hope to get a day off on 25th to watch again with them! Will be so cool! Haha.

On that day too, I received a letter from NYP regarding my Graduation Ceremony. It will be held on 26th May 2009 in NYP Auditorium. Got two tickets for my family members to watch my graduation day. For your info, the tickets are not that classy for me. Haha. Really disappointing as Ive seen my brother's graduation invitation tickets from ITE and it was damn classy la. So nice. I think you better see below and you'll know what I meant. Haha.

These 3 pictures are my Brother's.

And this is mine. So simple.

Well Im so bad. Kutuk own school. REally bad girl. Haha. Whatever it is, Ive graduated from that school and going for the Ceremony. So see you people my fellow NR0621 on the 26th. Miss you people! Hehe.

Strength to carry on.

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It's a Public Holiday! A very super duperly GOOD Friday!
And also it's my nephew, Syahmi's birthday! Haha.
What a great day! I went to Geylang Market with my parents in the morning then helped my mum with the cooking for Birthday Boy's celebration at his house. Yippee! Cooking was fun. The celebration started around 5pm. Loads of food we had. Although there were only three families, the house was like a club. Haha. With karaoke and children playing games, it was so choatic la. But was really great and fun. I enjoyed the day alot especially the karaoke session. Haha. Without further a-do, I present to you some of the pictures taken on that special day. Enjoy!

Strength to carry on.

A question.

Life is so complicated. Even simple question can be considered difficult. A question "Are we still friends?" was asked. An indirect answer "Msg when have probs" was given. Should we consider it as yes or a no. That's another question now. What can I say. People change even I change. Well, what I only asked for every minute, every hour, every day is "God forgive me. Show me the light to the right path and give me the strength to carry on." Only He knows what Im going through now. Alone in my room as always thinking how my life would be like as time flies. Having to go through it alone is difficult bt I always remember that He will always be with me and guide me through this life. I just hope I can pull through every obstacles I faced and prove to you that I can make it to the top. That's my only wish. And no worries. Ive always forgave you and everything that had happened was for a reason. I redha with all these. I just hope you're always happy.

Strength to carry on.

My New Ward!!

Hey there ppl!! Been a week since I last blog. Well Ive been busy with work at my new ward now. Ever since Ive been allocated to ward 57, Ive become more tired and exhausted to have plans with my friends. Haiz. What a life now. Really different from student life. And let me share with you abit about my ward. It's quite a nice ward. A general surgery ward whereby handling almost all kinds of surgeries. Sounds tough huh. Hehe. Btw Im allocated to 'A' Station. More tough course when Im in charge in the future, Ive to take charge of all 16 patients there. Ish! That's alot man. Don't know how am I going to cope with that but in any case, I have to. Just pray hard and ask for directions from God. Insya'Allah I can. Amin.

Strength to carry on.